We're getting better. The fevers are gone. Lingering coughing and furtive relieved glances over cooler baby foreheads let us know the worst is over.
I learned some things from this flu.
1. There is a ghost dog living in my house. Really. We put the old beast down last spring, but when I was in the sleepy fever that was Thursday I had him with me. He was at my feet and when I felt worse he moved his way up (as he always used to do) and put his head on my chest so I could play with his velvet ears and smell his warm dog smell. I miss him.
2. I am a good mother. My children are resilient and I know how high to let the fever go so that it can fight off the nagging other symptoms. I know that they need to be wrapped around me no matter how sore I am like man o' wars. I let them, and I let myself love it.
3. I'm going to be one of those old people who carries around an oxygen tank. I have asthma but never worry about it. I got a taste this week of what my asthma will feel like later on when I'm old and my lungs are weak. Imagining myself like that was amusing and terrifying at the same time.
Thanks friends for all your kind support! I woke up this morning to the most wonderful comments and healing wishes. Kooky or not, I believe in that kind of healing energy and I am so thankful for all of your thoughts.
In other news:
NANO!!!!!!!! Let's go people.
I'm going to be mean and post a short story contest this week. Keep a look out. The winner will get a goody box with a 20 dollar gift certificate to their store of choice. (Who couldn't use that around this time of year?)
I'll be visiting and making comments on all your blogs. Thanks for your patience. Stay well. Oh, and Lila... h1n1 aint that bad. You can take it off your fear list :)