Friday, January 22, 2010

Softly I am

Softly walking away from what is most wrong, I tip my chin to the highway for a final look. I knew when I first drove these roads...I knew I didn't belong to them. They didn't move well under my tires.

I knew when I sat down behind the desk. It tried to yank itself away from me. It caught my sweater, and when I looked out through the window the trees laughed at my dilemma.

And now I am that awful kind of free. The kind where dreams are close but I am frozen.

I softly walked away and made room. I've been moving. I've been making space. I've been....

Softly I am showering off the dirty mess of two years of nothing but lost time.

Softly I am.

20 comments:

  1. Oh, that makes me a little sad. But I know how it feels when one finds themself with lost time.

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  2. I am a little sad. Had to say goodbye to something I never wanted.. but a goodbye is still a goodbye.. right? Thanks Carolyn.

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  3. That was quietly beautiful, Suzy. Beautiful and hauntingly sad...

    Nevine

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  4. Lost time is one of my biggests guilts. Goodbyes are hard. Hang in there. *hugs*

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  5. Poignant, touching post. You have my best wishes!

    Pearl

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  6. That was very lovely in a sad and wistful way. It made me think of when I was laid off last year - except my words weren't quite so poetic! ;->

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  7. Oh so sad.
    Your way of describing things makes me tingle sometimes- "they didn't move well under my tires"is, I think, an amazing way of putting it.
    I suppose sometimes we have to make room to allow new stuff to happen, and we have to endure the ensuing temporary emptiness.

    Your soul's mission must happen, and will happen. Your tires will find a better road that they move well on.

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  8. I wish I could find appropriate words to comment on yours. This resonates beyond my vocabulary.

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  9. Is there really such a thing as lost time? Was nothing learned in the process (whatever that may have been)?

    I only say so to perhaps bring light and perspective. If it's even wanted.

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  10. As Nevine says, "hauntingly sad..."

    And the "lost time" bit really caught me. I hope that whatever we've lived through, there can be some bit of learning in the living of it. If even a small grain or two...

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  11. Oh, sad Suzanne. I hope the goodbye was not too painful. And if it was, I hope you are okay. Lost time is never really lost time though. I think there is always a reason for every place we find ourselves. Something to take forward and something to leave behind. I hope you are moving on to things you want and can hold with both hands :)

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  12. This is beautiful, but sad. I know you're on your way to somewhere you belong, somewhere that's perfect for you. *hugs*

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  13. Whatever it is you've walked away from, I hope you are feeling good about it. Take care.

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  14. Sometimes, one just has to let go to move on.

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  15. Goodbyes are always sad and lonely. Even when they are good for us. Poignant expression. Hope you are working through the sadness. A

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  16. This reminded me of nighttime and watching rain splatter the windows outside - so sad and moving. Goodbyes are a mandatory part of life but they are never easy.

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