Sunday, May 22, 2011

The Magic that Was

In the gray, smokey days of the 1970's I was little. Not just young. I had a small frame too. Small for my age, anyway, and wispy like an unsure idea.

My mother drove a red Volkswagen Beetle that putted along with a static AM radio and seats that smelled of summer sunshine even when it was winter.

With no money and a world of worry my mom took us places that became unlikely wonderlands. Like the fabric store downtown where they sold indian bedspreads for 10$ and reams and reams of white, filmy organza for draping across breeze filled windows.

The bedspreads held onto the perfume of turmeric and marigold. No matter how many times they were washed, they never lost their scent. They transported me to magical places with their deep purples and oranges and reds. And my mother always knew the balance. How to place and use those bright fabrics in tandem with the white organza. Creating a magic place where we lived. A cocoon of color and solace.

Because no matter where that car took us, no matter where we ran out of gas or who we ran away from, the Beetle always brought us home.

And there was magic there.

Inside the back door and past the potted red geranium... every witch knows to keep a red geranium on their back doorstep. It's how we recognize each other. And then into the hall and up the stairs. The bells on the door tell the ghosts to sink back into the walls. The kitchen whispers at us, telling us what to make for dinner. My mother eases around the corner into the fancy dining room that we don't use and puts the needle on the record player. The magic music comes out and never fails to work, not like the TV that only snows. And Dori Previn sings out of the player, harmonizing about all sorts of poetic sad nonsense. As we wrap ourselves in Indian Bedspreads while we make dinner.

Because we are magic girls who live in a magic place called home.

I want to go back home. And no matter how many geraniums I plant here, I can't seem to find the hallway back to that other place. The place where we were safe and no one could find us.

How do I get back there? I'm close, late at night when I leave the window open and the ghosts of who we were dance across my face.

If I could float, I know I'd be able to at least visit with that magic that was... but I haven't yet learned to hover.

24 comments:

  1. Such wonderful description here...and how well you capture the desire to return to what was. You made me want to put a geranium on my back step...which sadly, only gets part-sun.

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. I have to thank the one man that was able to restore my broken relationship, I have always taught that white are more superior to black in all aspect of life, But this powerful spell caster called Dr.Abazara proved to me that intends of spell casting that Africans are the best. That is the reason why i will be recommending the services of Dr.Agbazara to all those that have been heart broken because just through these details: agbazara@gmail.com Or call +2348104102662 i was able to contact Dr.Agbazara and today i am happy

      Delete
  2. I love this--so beautiful.

    And I'm going to buy a geranium today. For sure.

    ReplyDelete
  3. Beautiful post. I wish geraniums grew bettter here. They always freeze. So sad.

    ReplyDelete
  4. Beautifully written. You've really captured the longing for a time and place long gone in the physical sense. Now that I'm looking for my new (and hopefully) last home, I realize that the things I imagine for my new space, the view, the gardens and so forth are very much like the home I had growing up. I guess life it like that.
    It was a pleasure reading your pos. Thanks
    Luna

    ReplyDelete
  5. Thanks all! BTW there are people telling me that they are having trouble commenting on the blog. If you are trying to comment and can not, please email me! I want to fix that asap.

    ReplyDelete
  6. Ah, I remember the scent of those Indian bedspreads. Mine was in shades of orange and red. Bewitching, to be sure!

    ReplyDelete
  7. Love this post. Beautiful, whimsical, magical. It transported me to a special lost place; my childhood home. I love the way you write. ;-)

    ReplyDelete
  8. Commenting from Safari! (and Firefox is still not cooperating.) Thanks! You solved the mystery. Woohoo!

    ReplyDelete
  9. Beautiful post, Suzy! Is the picture of your real childhood house?

    ReplyDelete
  10. I Want to tell the world about a great man called Dr.Agbazara of AGBAZARA TEMPLE for bringing joy into my marriage after 2years of divorce from my husband and my 4kids, i have don everything to bring them back to my life because i love them so much so a friend introduced me to a spell caster last month who did every thing spiritually and bring them back within 48hours, now we are together and happy even more than we where before. You can contact this great spell caster to solve your own relationship problems via email like i did on: (agbazara@gmail.com) OR call +2348104102662

    From USA

    ReplyDelete
  11. My wife has been suffering from thyroid cancer which was confirmed to be stage four, the doctor told me there was little he could do since she wasn’t responding to treatment but a friend of mine came to our rescue by ordering this cannabis oil from Shakes Spear which he said has been helping some patient fight against cancer of various types so we decided to give it a chance, so far my wife is improving perfectly very well and presently she can walk around the house all by herself. I felt its necessary i let others who are suffering from this acute disease that once you have a good cannabis oil it can really give one a sound second chance of living. by
    chance if you happen to be in need of this cannabis oil you can contact Shakes Spear who supplied I and my wife with this email: shakesspear23@yahoo.com OR shakesspear23@gmail.com

    HE FIX THE FOLLOWING PROBLEMS TO ALL
    ACROSS THE GLOBE ON:
    1. Getting your lover or husband back
    2. Spiritual bulletproof
    3. Training
    4. Money spell
    5. Long life spell
    6. Prosperity spell
    7. Protection spell
    8. Get a job spell
    9. Becoming a manager spell
    10. Get a huge loan without paying any fee spell
    11. Getting your scam money back
    12. Child spell
    13. Pregnancy spell
    14. Freedom spell
    15. Love spell
    16, vanishing spell
    17. Invisible human spell
    18. Success or pass spell
    19. Marriage spell
    20. Avenging spell
    21. Popularity spell
    22. Killing spell
    23. Cancer spell
    24. Supernatural power spell
    25. Madness spell
    26. Free house loan spell
    27. Production spell of films and movie
    28. Hiv/aids spell
    29. Tuberculosis spell
    30. Loose weight and body spell

    contact me of any of these problem as I got solution to all... MY EMAIL ADDRESS IS:shakesspear23@yahoo.com OR shakesspear23@gmail.com

    ReplyDelete
  12. I want to thank Dr.Agbazara for his job in my family, this is man who left me and the kids for another woman without any good reasons, i was pain and confuse,till one day when i was browsing through the internet with my computer then i saw Dr.Agbazara contact, then i contaced him and he help me cast a reunion spell, since I then the situation has changed, everything is moving well, my husband who left me is now back to his family. reach DR.AGBAZARA TEMPLE via email if you have any relationship problem at:

    agbazara@gmail.com
    OR call him on +2348104102662

    ReplyDelete
  13. i still cant believe that there are people out there dying of hart-break or scammed by other spell casters when you have Dr. abolo in this world why leaving Dr.abolo for another and why still languishing in loneliness because your lover left you. there is only one solution to you problem which is Dr. abolo whose details are (abolospell@hotmail.com,+2347052534659. Because in my own situation he did a very great job for me by bring back my ex lover without wasting time and since then my relationship has been perfect and protected by his great power. So better contact him now at (abolospell@hotmail.com or call his cell phone +2347052534659) because that problem you are keeping is killing you slowly.

    ReplyDelete
  14. I have to thank the one man that was able to restore my broken relationship, I have always taught that white are more superior to black in all aspect of life, But this powerful spell caster called Dr.Abazara proved to me that intends of spell casting that Africans are the best. That is the reason why i will be recommending the services of Dr.Agbazara to all those that have been heart broken because just through these details: agbazara@gmail.com Or call +2348104102662 i was able to contact Dr.Agbazara and today i am happy

    ReplyDelete
  15. Am Tanya Albert from United State I was heartbroken that my boyfriend decided to leave the relationship, so I had the Retrieve A Lover spell cast. with Dr Ekpiku Within a week of the spell casting, he called "just to talk." After some pleasant talks and catching up, he asked to see me again. I felt he had started to turn around. I decided to give him a chance just to see. now we are happily married and He is absolutely crazy about me, i thank Dr Ekpiku for bringing back my ex, if you need his help you can contact him via email:Ekpikuspelltemple@live.com

    ReplyDelete
  16. Special thanks goes to this great spell caster called Dr.Abolo. I will forever in my life remain grateful to this great man for bringing my lover back to me after 9 weeks of emotional tears and pains during the period i lost my lover to another guy, but this great man brought my man back to me just within 48 hours. Try this great man and see for yourself the outcome Contact him at: +2347052534659 or via email: Abolospell@hotmail.com. I promise you that after contacting him your life will never remain the-same.

    ReplyDelete
  17. I am so happy after many months of searching the internet for a perfect spell caster to get my lover back i came across this great spell caster called Dr.Jesu and his contact details are: ((jesutemple7@gmail.com)) and When i contacted Dr.Jesu i was not sure if he could get my lover back to me because i have contacted some other spell casters before none was able to get my lover but just within 48 hours that i contacted Dr.Jesu my lover came back to me immediately

    ReplyDelete
  18. I just want to give a quick advise to any one out there that is having difficulty in his or her relationship to contact Dr.Agbazara because he is the only one that is capable to bring back broken relationship or broken marriages within time limit of 48 hours. You can contact Dr.Agbazara by calling him on his mobile +2348104102662 or write him through his email at ( agbazara@gmail.com )

    ReplyDelete
  19. I am Dr Ogudugu a Traditional healer, herbalist and spell caster. I use real magical powers to fight demons, evil spirits and super villains. Are you suffering in silence? does everything in your life seems to be going wrong no matter how hard you try to make things better? have Questions about love, or career let me help you am a born gifted traditional healer and master psychic. I 've experience in exploration of the past, present and future. I can help you with any of those problems that are making your life difficult and miserable,do you have many enemies some enemies that you are not even aware of? are you having many obstacles in your life? Is your love,relationship,marriage life falling apart? is your life facing financial ruin ? i specialize in reuniting.Email me about your problems and i'll be of great help to you on my personal email address: GREATOGUDUGU@GMAIL.COM

    ReplyDelete
  20. Indeed Dr. Osose is really the best love spell caster on Earth after proving him to me by helping me to bring back my ex lover back to me with his powerful love spell. i so much believe that Dr. Osose is an expert when it comes to relationship issues he can solve any relationship maters in just 48hours. i will advice anyone out there having a broken relationship or facing any problem in your relationship to contact Dr. Osose via Ososelovespell@gmail.com or call him at +2348133194891 to help you out because he has all it takes to make you happy.

    ReplyDelete
  21. If you need your Ex lover, Wife or Husband back please i will advice you to contact Doctor. Osose via Ososelovespell@gmail.com or +2348133194891 because he is the only one that has the power to help you and he can surprise you by bringing back your ex love within 48 hours just like he did to me and now me and my ex lover are living happily.

    ReplyDelete
  22. I was not happy until i met Dr.Agbazara through these details +2348104102662 or agbazara@gmail.com because my husband has left me and never had the intention of coming back home. But just within 48 hours that i contacted Dr. Agbazara my marriage changed to the positive side, At first my husband came back home and since then my marriage has been more peaceful and romantic than ever before

    ReplyDelete
  23. My name is Claudia Jenna, I almost took my life because of my ex who left me and stop picking my calls. He said do not trust me anymore, I tried to convince him, but he will not believe me until we had a fight and broke up for 8months, after then I realize I can not live without him because of the love I have for him. I tried everything possible to get him back, but non worked for me, some fake spell casters scammed me and went away with my money until I came across this man called Olorun, he cast a spell for me and behold my ex came back after three days, begging me for forgiveness, I was so surprised that spell caster like this still exist. If anyone here needs some help, with all sincerity, contact Olorun via his email: (olorunoduduwaspiritualtemple@gmail.com)

    ReplyDelete