Sunday, June 5, 2011

Perfect is already here

Somewhere during the chaos of a new baby and a renovation, my sweet husband lost his mind. And I know him well enough to know why.

Our finances were low. Our future? Not secure. The house was over budget, The new baby would not. stop. crying.

And did I mention we were living with my godfather? The man of curious curios (all breakable)and  fine art, and a guest bedroom that also houses a baby grand piano. (My middle girl, Tess, has the distinguished privilege of being able to say she slept under a baby grand for three months of her life.) Stress times four.

Only I wasn't stressed. I remember that time and a warm kind of tingle spreads across my body. The coffee was hot. My laundry was done and folded. I watched my children set against lovely gardens and amazing baubles. They shone like stained glass. My babies bathed in a tub, red ceramic, from Italy with a german faucet. Fancy doesn't do it justice.

And the house? OUR house? It was being bettered. Fixed up. Fancied too. I went there all the time and marveled at the beams and paint and new kitchen backsplash.

My baby cried. But I nursed her. And her crying helped the other two adjust. I can't explain it. I think it was because she was flawed and that somehow made her newness not so threatening.  Whatever it was, it was a golden time.

I'm not afraid when we don't have money. I'm not afraid when we don't have OUR stuff around us. Nothing scares me but being without my family.

I'd live with my husband if we had to live in a van. As long as we parked it in a meadow. And as long as he wasn't yelling at me.

It doesn't take much for me to feel like things are perfect. In reality, perfect's already been here and then gone.

XO

S

7 comments:

  1. What a wonderful way to look at life.
    As they say, "Don't sweat the small stuff!"

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  2. Thanks! It really was a fun time. Five years ago... time flies.

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  3. This is lovely.

    I am the same way about my family. I can do without everything but them.

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  4. Oh Sharon! I can always count on you. Thank you for being here.

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  5. I love this! You know how to twist a phrase to make it perfect. You really do!

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  6. Beautifully said.

    Rule #32, Enjoy the little things

    -EE

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  7. What a tender post. Love it! And your right. Family is what's more important.

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